Danni Marie Makkreel.
(+) music, art, friends, jacob, family, vibes, wolves, toucans, eagles, bears, lesbians, penis, video games, computers, anime, Japanese, happiness, alcohol, pain, interior design, money, records, christmas, fall, cats, tea, candles, mars argo, ellen page, kat dennings, kat von d, george clooney, Hayao Miyazaki, drawing, composing music, movies, my future, myself, insanity.
(-) myself, liars, people that try to change me, followers, depression, being sick, OCD, insanity, rumors, stupid guys, acne, people that never believe me, candy, judgmental, math, feeling alone, and negativity.
TO start off on the positive side, im in love with my bf till death <3 i love the warm comfy things in life, and my life is close to perfect, my mind is just a fucked mess of over thinking :3. really im so happy, but always find a reason to believe im not!
Depressing life story of my head if you actually give a shit >.< VVV
I’m a very straight forward person with almost everything to hide. Sadly I’m never anything i want to be. I hate myself more than anything else, and people who challenge that opinion. I dislike drama but sadly it always gets me involved cause i tend to be a very straight forward, loud mouth that enjoys starting fights. I’m a very big hypocrite but w.e. I hate people that try to change my opinion or the way i handle things; i do what i do, so accept it or fuck off. I don’t really know what type of person i am but i know what i like, and what i like is what i want to become. I fail at almost everything i do, and give up on almost everything. i give good advice but i never fallow up to it. I’m extremely blunt, but i try to be as nice as i can. I care too much what people think about me , but im working on that. I’m extremely deep but keep to myself, and i believe there are no boundaries in life no matter how many people put up towards me; even though I put up an infinite amount towards myself. If i think of who i am as a person, i begin to notice that i fit in no where; I’m an odd individual and surprised that people accept me for who i am as a person. Im extremely awkward, and it sucks. As being alone is a main objective in my life non intentionally; i feed for comfort in something or someone. I feed to be attached to something, and without that i would fall apart. I believe that maybe i have multiple personalities, for everyday i change opinions, beliefs, and personality. I am scared and worried about almost everything; and its extremely hard to avoid these fears in my life. I have mild OCD which doesn’t help; cause i begin to become obsessed with my fears and build on them. I’m obsessed with myself; and finding out who i really am or who im going to become. I’m obsessed with my future and base all my decisions off who i will be in the future; which really gets me no closer to where i wish to be. I wish to be perfect; but put up abnormal amounts of walls for myself although i wish to be free; i isolate myself inside my mind and i believe one day it will make me literally insane. I complain about everything and mostly talk about myself, but people that actually sit down and listen to me complain and still enjoy my company are people i love to be around. There is nothing wrong with my life; but as odd as it may be; i always have a reason to be sad if its real or just fiction; but i pretend to be happy which in a way makes me happy. I also believe that i have an illness which makes me believe i have illnesses which i don’t have; or even heard of, which is a sign of me also believing im literally insane. But as much people may avoid me, im just glad to have met myself in my life of loneliness. I live my life mainly on vibes that i get from other people, art, pictures, music and everything around me. I haven’t figured out my own vibe which is what makes me most depressed, but i hope to one day figure out what my vibe turns out to be. I’m not here to sound depressing, or complain about how “shitty” my life is (although thats all i’m talking about hahaahha). Just trying to express myself in beauty that’s not in my life that i just wish was, and in a way, it keeps me sane. Different. Creative. Nerdy. Insane. Adventurer. I want to travel the world and see what living really is, at the edge of a cliff side (:
Im not insane; just as bizarre as bizarre will let me be.
I’m two people stuck in one body; and im a constant conflict of trying to find out which me is myself. Im an infinite corruption; insane if you will; but i smile on your pain and cry at your happiness. I’m just trying to get out of this cell i made inside for myself.
I’m someone i try not to be.
Where my dreams take me (+)
White River, Colorado
The Peak, Hong Kong
Country Side, China
Long Beach, LA
Anywhere the world may take me.
other blog of my mind.
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